Nadine Morgan is a journalist. She travels the world looking for dangerous assignments, living in exotic locales and covering wars, genocide, and crime rings. When an assignment to report on the drug gangs in Mexico goes sideways, Nadine ends up back in her hometown on Cape Cod. Desperate to escape, but still healing from wounds both physical and emotional, she passes up a chance for love with a local doctor to pursue a story in a part of the world she thought she would never see again, South Africa. She goes back to report on a story about a young man from her own small town who was beaten to death while teaching in the black townships. His killers were being brought before the Truth and Reconciliation Commission, whose job it was to determine whether people convicted of political violence during the years leading up to Nelson
Mandela's release from prison should continue to serve their sentences. She is forced to confront her own personal demons from her time in Cape Town, and the reasons that she will do anything, including putting herself in harm's way, to avoid making the kind of connections that would tie her to one person or place.
I really enjoyed the other book by Amanda Eyre Ward that I read, Sleep Toward Heaven. Like that book, Forgive Me deals with forgiveness and redemption. The book is told alternately from Nadine's perspective and the diary of a young boy who, like Nadine herself, is desperate to leave his small town life behind for fame and fortune in the wider world. Nadine's story is told through a series of flashbacks to her first time in South Africa, and how it affected her in the present. At times it was really hard to like Nadine. She used her journalistic liberalness as a shield for her own selfishness. After all, how angry can you be when you have offered a person your house on Nantucket Island as a refuge when they leave with no notice to pursue the story of bringing a young man's murderer to justice. Being a journalist allowed Nadine a certain distance from being personally connected to the things that were happening to the people around her, including the people that she considered friends.
Some of the characters were pretty one dimensional, especially Nadine's stepmother, and both of her love interests. To be honest, I'm not sure if this was lazy storytelling or purposeful. After all, Nadine didn't really see other people except as they related to herself. The boy whose journal we are privy to was much more real than any of the other characters in the book, but I spent most of the book wondering what connection his story had to the rest of the narrative, other than his intense desire to get out of his small Cape Cod town. Once I realized who he was, it made a little more sense, but I feel like Ward never really connected the dots between Nadine and the other mothers.
The strange thing is that despite all of the flaws I found in the writing, I still really enjoyed the book. It was an easy read, and the story of what happened to the people during the struggle to end apartheid and the aftermath of Nelson Madela's election as president were engaging enough to keep me reading. The story was billed as one about motherhood, which I didn't really get. To me, it was more about gaining forgiveness, both from the people that you have wronged and yourself. After years of running away, Nadine needed to stay somewhere long enough to see the ramifications of her own choices, and to fulfill commitments she made to people in order to help them find justice in an unjust world.
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